My Favorite Earrings
I bought this dress more than three years ago now that is black and has this really cute bronze belt with black gems attached to it. It made me look so thin and I felt great in it. The problem was it really needed earrings to to tie the outfit together. I tried everything and looked every where for two years, but I could not find anything that matched that belt. Something that seemed so simple when I bought the dress, turned out to be impossible. Then when I started making jewelry, I was suddenly able to create whatever I wanted, and these earrings were the result.
This story has a happy/sad ending though. I’ve recently lost about 30 pounds and totally reshaped my body. I feel great and look better than I have since middle school. That’s ten years people! This is wonderful news, and it feels wonderful, but it is also bitter sweet. I love my clothes! I’ve spent the better part of the last five years building a wardrobe that I am proud of, and now none, NONE of it fits me. I’m left with jeans and shirts that are now baggy, and I’ve just handed over a pile of my former favorites to my mom while trying not to cry. I feel like I look so good, but so awful in all my clothes.
I know it sounds stupid, but I love fashion and my clothes really mean a lot to me. I have memories associated with all of them. I hope there are some women out there that can sympathize. Now, I have to spend the next five years starting all over again from scratch because I’ve never dressed this body before. The dress these earrings were created for will be in a bag going to Goodwill any day now, and I really don’t have the extra cash to buy new things.
I know I could have worse things to complain about, and lord know this year I have, but I’ve always been well dressed. It’s my thing. So what now? It is also worth mentioning that I still have at least 20 pounds more to go, so I really can’t buy new stuff just to have to get rid of it in another 4-6 months.
with much love and confusion~